August 21, 2011

Our day in phrases, cuz mama's too tired to think

coffee with the one I love
picnic packing
waking children
yogurt, fruit, pecans and chia seeds
mcgriddles - yep, you read that right :)
1.5 hour drive through the gorgeous hills that we call home
VW westie cruzin'
happy children
peeing on a gravel road
exploring the hilly slopes, weeds and creek after the pee
sanctuary with UU's
Pathways Spiritual Sanctuary
meandering hike
babies and snacks
picnic lunch under a shady tree
sleepy stroller ride
Buddhist water ceremony
carrot eating horses
sun and blue sky
ice cream with beloved friends
playing and falling more in love with ZJ
lots of nursing time 
giggles and funny faces, enough so to warrant picture taking by passing bikers
pitiful fire pit fire
but hot enough to burn little fingers :(
snuggles with my biggest boy
sleepy time

August 10, 2011

Here's Your Order, Ma'am...

I've been driving myself crazy lately.  Isn't that a funny sentence?  ** I'VE ** been driving myself crazy.  Why?  Why would I do that?  Isn't that just stupid.  Yep.  Stupid, indeed.  It's all up in my head, too.  This conversation, this story that I tell myself over and over and over.  Lots of stories, really.  All of them limiting.

I don't have time to --- fill in the blank.
I can't do that because --- insert lame excuse here.
Why is my life so much harder than everyone else's?
They just wouldn't understand...

Don't you just love how the Universe lines up with exactly what we ask for?  Look at what I've been asking for!!!  And I'm surprised that I actually got what I was asking for???  WTH.  ;) When will this silly little human ever learn?

But, today... something happened.  I just **was**.  I went along with things.  I put my agenda aside, and simply trusted everything was exactly as it should be.  But I kinda just did it without really thinking about it.  I mean, I didn't wake up and say, "today, I shall trust that all is as it should be" -- (but I probably should make a habit of doing THAT!) --  No.  Instead, something, some force just carried me along and I surrendered and it felt GOOD.  So good.

And now, my focus shall shift.

I needed a day just like today.