May 20, 2007

Surrendering Willingly

Today started out with me, having all kinds of expectations about what I thought should happen! And on top of that, I was choosing to be a grump! Yuck.

I'm happy to report that I surrendered to the flow of my children, and decidedly chose JOY!!! And because of that, we had such a nice day. There was roller blading, inside the house and across the street in a big, empty parking lot. There was barefoot exploration of puddles left from last nights rain. There was a conversation with my son, having a great time with his cousins in Murdo. There was cookie dough, eaten by the glob, straight out of the bowl, and enjoyed warm and gooey from the oven. There was a bath, shared by two beautiful boys and their Grateful mama. (and we just have a regular sized tub!) There was a mid-afternoon thunderstorm, that darkened the house and prompted me to light some of our candles, and enjoy their pretty glow. There was yoga, mom in the downward dog and little boys right under me, saying I looked like a triangle. There were so many other moments and details that simply can't be captured in words. My expectations of going to church and mowing? Out the window, and that's ok! The day was exactly what it needed to be, and it was perfect!

Stone's getting really good on his roller blades already, and has had them on most of the day, practicing going from here to there, and figuring out how they feel and how to work his body in cooperation with them. I had some time to catch up on blogs, and post a couple entries of my own! ;) John and I had the rare privilege of a 45 minute conversation. The boys and I will be heading back *home* to *him* very soon. We'd set a round-about date of mid-June, but I doubt we'll make it. As the days go by here, it becomes clearer and clearer of where we need to be... with him, all together, good or bad, thick or thin. As excited I was about coming home to our house, I'm more excited about returning home to John. He's my best friend...
The boys are expressing their desire, as well. Whenever we talk about going back out there, they say, "can we go tomorrow?" Yep, it's time, indeed! But, I must stay around long enough to hear the one and only perform in Hot Springs next Sunday (May 27). Her lyrics bring tears to my eyes...good tears, though! Time to snuggle with my boys and watch Charlotte's Web. Peace...

6 comments:

Sue and Steve said...

Oh, it was so wonderful talking to you today, and it's always wonderful to read your blog. The last few entries remind me of how I could be going through my life in a much different, more flowing and joyful way! I'm immensely grateful that you share that with me and the world. (And thanks for the movie tix! We just picked up our mail and found them -- Pirates of the Caribbean here we come!)

Biby Cletus said...

Cool blog, i just randomly surfed in, but it sure was worth my time, will be back

Deep Regards from the other side of the Moon

Biby Cletus

Snavleys said...

It works out well when we choose to flow, doesn't it? Just to BE, sometimes a difficult thing. Glad to hear that you are planning on reuniting with John, can't imagine how hard it must be to be so far away.

Amy said...

I have to say again that I'm so glad you're posting more and sharing lots of photos!!! That's so nice when you're able to turn around a day or moment and be open to whatever comes your way.

amy said...

Home is definetely where the heart is-the black hills are wonderful but I couldn't imagine spending so much time here without my partner in life-it's hard enough being without my kid for weeks at a time. Selfishly I'd hoped you'd spend more time here but understandably I know why you want to head out.

Vicki said...

OH, I have so been there! Sometimes what we think we want isn't what we really need after all, is it? I'm happy to hear you're going back *home*. :)

I've always said to my stationary friends that think it must be rough for the kids, that home truly is where the heart is. The most important thing for a happy and succesful family is to be together. but you already know that.

Vicki - Who wishes she could see Amy, too